I haven't slept much, about 3-5 hours a night for the last 5 nights in a row. Hubby's gone and I've had anxiety about it I've never had before. I don't like it. I'm not especially good at being a single mommy. My kids see the frustration on my face even though I'm trying my best and keeping my tone and demands under control. It doesn't help that my youngest son is sick with the cold my oldest gave him when he was sick last week. It doesn't help that I'm not eating enough or drinking enough water.
I didn't run tonight. Speedwork was supposed to be a mile warm up 4 miles progressive run (increase speed with each mile with no breaks between) and a mile cool down. I couldn't, I'm not sure if I'm getting sick or if the stress is just wearing on me. I laid in bed trying to sleep all day because I just felt like I was a carrying around a thousand pound boulder on my back. My head was in a fog and the thought of eating ANYTHING just made my stomach turn. I watched the clock til I finally fell asleep at 2am and the youngest little man woke up coughing at 2:30. I layed in the most uncomfortable bed with him til 6:30am when the alarm went off. I slept... but not sure how much of it was quality.
but tomorrow is another day. A day to get up and eat a good breakfast, go for a 5 mile run with my friend, eat a good snack a good lunch, clean the house and spend a nice afternoon with my boys. Tomorrow will be better today. I'm putting it out there into the universe. TOMORROW WILL BE A GOOD DAY! Did you hear me? ...
I can't wait for the hubby to get home.....
4 comments:
Hey, Tina hang in there! As the airplane safety announcements say: Make sure to apply the oxygen mask to yourself first before helping your kids with theirs. (My husband travels nearly 100% of the time for work)
you can totally crossfit at home! not everything.. but some things...
like..
5 push ups
5 squats
5 burpees...
on the minute, every minute, for 20 minutes.
that doesn't require gear!
there's lots of those kinds of things you can do.
you can also make-shift gear pretty easily..
especially a pull-up bar.
you can get a soccer ball.. cut it in half.. fill it with sand.. duck tape the sh*t out of it back together... there's your medicine ball!
or get a broom stick... put plastic bags in the ends, and fill the bags with canned goods...
there's your weight!!!
lots of options!!! you should DO IT!
(also i think every crossfit gym.. the first time is free. you can at least go get a free workout!)
For a laugh look up "The second week of deer camp" by Da Yupers (as in the U.P. of Michigan). It's a riot, and may give you a perverse idea of what he's doing! ;)
So was today a good day? I hope it was :-)
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